Looking Back At It Now

pictures from the past; 2007

I was once a teenager, searching for my true self.
..and had a camera to capture it all.
Boredom came over me today, and I decided to dust off my photobucket.
One word; wow.
I know I'm not the only one who looks back at photos or things they did when they first encountered this thing called the internet.
My style, the things I used to say, the screen names, typing Liike ThiiS!! .
It's all just a blur that I want to leave in the past.
It did make me miss how long my hair used to be before I was told it
was damaged and needed to be cut. My mom is trying to convince me to cut it as I type and as much as I would love something new and different, I just can't picture being bald. I mean my hair isn't mad long or anything, but I've always had a good grade of thick lovely hair and its just starting to grow back now so why would I cut it?

I'm done Stressing; for now

Things are getting better! Surprisingly I'm not as stressed as I would normally be. Yes when everything first started to go wrong, I was a reck. However I've realized that the more I stress the longer it will take for things to start going my way. A lot of things are still up in the air, but I can only take it one day at a time, and hopefully what ever happens will be something positive.

As far as school; I just did the Parent Plus Loan and got denied which makes me eligible for the full subsidize/unsubsidized loan amount. I'm still unsure of that amount, I keep reading between $4,000-and $10,500.
Either way whatever it is, it should bring my balance to $0, and that's really all that matters.
Or hopefully a negative balance because lord knows I could use a refund!
Enrollment deadline is the first week of August, so no time for bullshit. Depending on the amount, I'll probably have to stay with my Uncle until I get a job to pay my own rent, hopefully no later than November.
It's a lot more to it, but that's pretty much the basics.

The lady from the job, FINALLY called me. I got the job, however she's going on vacation next week and she won't be able to call me to complete the hiring process until the first week of August. Which then leaves me about two weeks, for background checks, paperwork and training. Which leaves me NO time to work, because if all goes well I plan to be on the first thing smoking to atl on the 21st. As desperate as I am for money and other things that I need and want I thought of taking a semester off and staying home to work and save and return to atlanta come January. Crazy? She's still going to call me when she returns and I'll give her my final decision..so we'll see.

uumm what else, I scheduled a appointment for my road test.
Might have to reschedule because I can't find my permit. For some reason I think I threw it away; FML! I meant to throw away my temp i.d which looks the same as the paper permit.
I'm supposed to pay a deposit by tomorrow to hold my spot, but I can't get another permit until Monday so yeah thats another we'll see.

This is looong, and my eyes are getting heavy. It's Friday and I'll probably be sleep by 1am, some summer ehh.

Stressed To The Max

Shit has been sooo stressful;

- my grandmother is in the hospital
- ^ which leads me to taking care of my great-grandmother.
-My great- grandmother who co-signed for my loan last yr for school got denied due to another family member taking her information and getting a car in her name.
- No one else in my family has good/decent credit!
-^ which leads me to stress about how I'm going to fund the rest of my fall semester, INCLUDING housing!
- I had my 1st&2nd interviews with this store, and no call back!
-My mom is on bed rest till the baby comes.
- I'll be able to take my road test this Friday, however due to everything else going on I have yet to sit down and schedule my appointment.
I just want to scream, pull my hair out, and lock myself in my room.
Sadly that would probably cause more stress because nothing would get done.
I'm rushing with this update, because I have to get back to my great grandmothers.
I come home about twice through out the day, to lay in MY bed, and use my laptop.

that's about it, hopefully everything works out and the next update will be filled with good news!

Lift Me Up

"What the hell, does the devil want with me?"

Another weekend update..
My weekend was aiight, nothing to brag about.
Last night was one of my best bitches bday, so I partied with her and the rest of our friends.
Can we say, wasted! We made Jolly Ranchers (a drink, which is maad good), had a couple in rotation and I was biting down. Never again will I mix all of that mess together, the after affect is nothing fun.
Then to top it off, I had to wake up and go to church this morning. I'm glad I went though.
I haven't been to church in years, and at this moment in my life I really needed the visit.
I've been stressed a lot lately, which also comes with daily headaches.
The pastors message really got to me, while I didn't catch the holy ghost. I did almost break down, but i'm a G lol. I also forgot where I was for a quick second, this man let one of those swinging doors go as I was walking towards and damn near knocked me out, all I could say was "Damn!" I don't think anyone heard me though. I plan to attend regularly for the rest of the time I'm home. It really uplifts you and makes your day go a little better.

Ohhh and how could I forget, I won a contest from one of my favorite streetwear brands Hellz Bellz. To some it may not be a big deal, but to those who know how much I love me some Hellz it was a a biig deaal!

I just ate my Sunday dinner and the itis is kicking in, feel me?
peace<3

This past weekend.. ♥

I can't complain about this past weekend, at all. Friday was my sisters bday, although I can't drink I went to the bar with her and her friends then we went to the club. Drinks were being bought and the bar was not where it was at so we decided to leave. My sis and her friends couldn't finish the drinks so they had to sneak me in the bathroom and I downed the shots. Long story short, I woke up the next morning with a headache. Saturday and Sunday, consisted of me taking a mini vacation to Flint. It was a spur of the moment thing, but I'm glad I went. Got to see some of my family and hang out with my cousin and his girlfriend at the moment. Its crazy how different people live, even the smallest distance away. I also got a interview on my way out, and went to the interview this morning. It went good, I'm hoping I get the job. I'll know by the end of this week or Tuesday at the latest.
I've been shopping like crazy, its like I went from not shopping at all to being at the mall multiple times a week. My interview was at the mall, so that didn't make it any better. I told myself I was just going to browse a bit, I ended up being in the mall for 2hrs after my interview!
I got a few minor things, like tee's and shorts and these;





I'm going to chill around the rest of the day, catch up on my rest!
Might work on a new layout, I hate not being able to do certain stuff with the classic version.
peace ♥

a broken heart

This week has flown by, probably because I wasn't productive at all.
I only worked one day this week, however I'll still get paid for all 4.
It's lovely working for relatives.
Last week I think it was, I promised myself I would treat myself to something once a week.
I haven't shopped or did much for myself so far this summer and that's rare.
I treated myself twice this week and I'm all :]'s about it.
I went to the mall unexpectedly today, and bought a cute dress, dope glasses and these funky leggings. Still waiting on my order from karmaloop. Retail therapy just puts me in a good mood.

Of course someone had to blow it. I've been told I over analyze and, I admit sometimes I do. And of course I second guess myself at times but who doesn't? Scenario; two people are talking, very close relationship. Might as well say their together but its all in the air. The guy is having sex with other females or a female. Should the female feel some type of way about that or not?
That's basically my situation, and where the photo meaning comes in. I'm simply heart broken by it all. I'm not mad, just hurt. I can't be mad because of the circumstances. But damn homie!

I've been listening to Adele's album "19", at least one a day for the last couple days and I looove her lyrics, and voice. It just makes you zone out and think. I can't really say which song is my favorite, because I listen to the whole thing straight through without knowing which song is actually playing. A few that come to mind would be "Chasing Pavements" "Cold Shoulder" and "Hometown Glory"..oh and "Right As Rain". What the hell, all of them.
Check it out for yourself.

photo via; flickr

Last one, I promise

Yep, another blog. I'm deleting my live journal and this is the result. I still feel like I have too many blogs/sites going on. But oh well, this is here and staying. Still debating on what to do with Fifty-Fifty, not sure If I want to make strictly about fashion, music and entertainment and all that misc. stuff or just delete it and post it all on tumbler with a little less detail. Feel me? Doubt it!
I'm working on my personal website, love the coding and designing aspect of it. So until it expires might as well keep it up. Lastly I have a tumblr that I have yet to do anything with.
This right here, is strictly Jasmine Nicole and how I feel about certain subjects and or current issues. Only issue I have with being personal is that there's no telling who reads these things and some people just find pleasure in being in other peoples business.

I'm mad irritated right now so long blog short, no matter how many blogs I have I appreciate everyone that visits, follows, bookmarks and even goes as far to leave feedback.

It's 12am, and I plan to be asleep by 1am. Mad early for me, being that I usually stay up till like 3am-4am. I had planned on working on my personal site a bit more but someone just had to blow mines.

Am I the only one irritated when someone calls you, and for some reason you don't answer. Then when you go to return their call not even 5mins later they want to be petty and not answer.
My dude is making it so easy to just say fuck it and you, i'm done. I know the distance of me being away for the summer is hard, but damn homie!
The issue goes beyond that but yeah whatever.