Let the festivities begin..

So the holiday season as officially begun, well to me it has.
one down, three to go.
I didn't celebrate Halloween, well at least not the fun of actually dressing like a skank and getting away with it. Maybe next year!

Two of my friends were in town for the weekend, so the whole crew got together and basically had a little reunion. We were supposed to go to a haunted house, but that didn't go as planned so we just went to Applebee's, and then hung out afterward and drank and smoke.
I usually prefer smoking to drinking, mainly because I've had a few bad experiences and liquor just has a bad taste to me. However since I never know when I'll have to go to court, I don't want to risk dropping dirty. So last night Apple Vodka was my friend! This morning proved why I don't normally drink, I felt like shit. I hate feeling like I have to throw up but it won't come up uuughh. & then this daylight savings shit is not what's up. I woke up thinking it's like 12pm/1pm and it was only 10am, the hell? I decided to get breakfast, went to BK and they weren't serving even though it was like 10:28am, and feeling like shit I wasn't in the mood to argue with them so I took my drunk ass across the street to McDonald's and what do ya know they were serving breakfast. I guess BK forgot to set their clocks back or something.
It seems like time is moving sooo slow, and I know I'm not going to like this shit when it comes to work.

Speaking of work, as each day passes I can't wait to put my two weeks in. I don't dislike retail yet but I understand why a lot of people do. The main thing I deal with on a daily is rudeness. I continuously have to bite my tongue and remember patience is key. I'm not fond of my co-workers either, those old hags are almost as rude as the customers. Just being the type of person I am, I don't care how long you've been here or what authority you think you have but you're not going to talk to me like I'm a child, let alone your child. Even though I don't plan on quitting, just transferring I'll be glad to be in a different environment and hopefully working with better ppl. They're also cutting hours, which I don't understand. It's the holiday season, which means we'll be busier [hopefully] so why am I going from 25-30hrs a week to 20-22 shit makes no since.
Which means no more shopping for me, I'll have to put the majority of my $$$ into my savings.

and last but not least, I'm officially starting my countdown.
I have 2mths to be exact until I'm back where I want & need to be and reunited with him.
Speaking of him, I sent a drunk FB message last night and loooord was I out that thang.
I read it this morning and can you say embarrassing!

Your honor..

"..Big ups to BET for the talent show!!!!"
- my aunt.

First things first, new look once again. I always think that updating the look will encourage me to post more often, we'll see how that goes this time. I've added another artist to my list of favorites; Adele. Whom the header is inspired by. If you haven't listened to her album then what the hell are you doing? I try to listen to at least once a day.

Just got done watching the BET Hip Hop Awards not too long ago, and to describe it in three words would be short, redundant and boring. I think the highlight was Kid & Play and Jay Z. Luda had the best performance IMO. Gucci and Dream performed the whole night, and Mike Epps was well...nothing to laugh about. Better luck next yr...yeah right.

Remember I wrote about a ticket I had received towards the beginning of Sept. well at first I had plead guilty and decided to just pay the $350 fine. Scratch that, my mom found out about the situation and called the court because she thought the whole thing was just impossible and she suggested I go to court. So yeah, I'll be waking up at about 7am, and heading to court. They say it's something called the "Move Over Law" and it's not a simple citation it's a freaking misdemeanor. I'm mos def not trying to have that on my record. The best that could happen would be for the police to not show up. This week has started off bad, and I'm ready for it to be over already.

edit; So it didn't go as I hoped, don't even feel like going into details. I'm out on bond, there's going to be a trial unless my lawyer says it's not worth the fight. I never will understand the system. Before my name was called about 30 white kids appearead all for possession of a controlled substance. They all were also minors and all they got were measly fines, none close to $350 might I add. Like I said this is all, bullshit.

Haters

"...I need 5 by the end of this month."

A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall.
They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough!
When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters…
That’s why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can’t handle seeing you blessed…
It’s dangerous to be like somebody else… If God wanted you to be like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?
You never know what people have gone through to get what they have…
The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they don’t know my story…
If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!
We’ve all got some haters among us!
Some people envy you because you can:
a) Have a relationship with God
b) Light up a room when you walk in
c) Start your own business
d) Tell a man / woman to hit the curb (if he / she isn’t about the right thing)
e) Raise your children without both parents being in the home

Haters can’t stand to see you happy.
Haters will never want to see you succeed.
Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be on our side.
How do you handle your undercover haters?

You can handle these haters by:
1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are *(VERY IMPORTANT!!)

2. Having a purpose to your life: Purpose does not mean having a job. You can have a job and still be unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.

3. By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human manipulation.

Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live…when its your time to leave this earth, you ‘want’ to be able to say, ‘I’ve lived my life and fulfilled ‘my’ dreams,… Now I’m ready to go HOME!

When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, ‘Don’t look at me…Look at Who is in charge of me…’

- Maya Angelou

Misunderstood

"Misunderstood, ain't gotta be explained."
- Weezy

Been missing for a while, shit's been crazy and shit's been good. As each day passes I get a little closer to being where I want to be, my home away from home. Same 'ol, working and trying to see things in a positive light. Things have been rocky with my family, but its nothing new and I'm sure we shall get over the problems, until next time. Am I the only one that hates when a person trys to tell them who they are, or what they are? Yes, everyone is entitled to their opinion but don't force your opinion on me and try to make me believe that you're right. I hate when a person insults me, but won't tell me the reason behind it.
Example; Someone saying you're dumb, stupid, crazy or some type of insult and when you ask why, they won't elaborate. They expect you to just accept it and move on. Well sorry, but I'll accept your insults without injury only if you explain why you feel that way.
Lately I've been called selfish, inconsiderate and to just have an all together bad attitude.
I'll admit I have a attitude, short temper and all that but sometimes people mistake my sarcasm for too much tude. Their problem, not mine. However I won't accept the title of selfish and inconsiderate.
It's their opinion, but my life. I guess, we all are misunderstood at one point in time.

*I have court on the 14th, still haven't told my mom.
I need to get it over with, IDK what I'm afraid of.
I wasn't in her car, I'm 19 and she's not going to have to pay for the ticket.
I really just need her for transpo.
It's always one thing after another, but things could be so much worse so whaatev.