Misunderstood

"Misunderstood, ain't gotta be explained."
- Weezy

Been missing for a while, shit's been crazy and shit's been good. As each day passes I get a little closer to being where I want to be, my home away from home. Same 'ol, working and trying to see things in a positive light. Things have been rocky with my family, but its nothing new and I'm sure we shall get over the problems, until next time. Am I the only one that hates when a person trys to tell them who they are, or what they are? Yes, everyone is entitled to their opinion but don't force your opinion on me and try to make me believe that you're right. I hate when a person insults me, but won't tell me the reason behind it.
Example; Someone saying you're dumb, stupid, crazy or some type of insult and when you ask why, they won't elaborate. They expect you to just accept it and move on. Well sorry, but I'll accept your insults without injury only if you explain why you feel that way.
Lately I've been called selfish, inconsiderate and to just have an all together bad attitude.
I'll admit I have a attitude, short temper and all that but sometimes people mistake my sarcasm for too much tude. Their problem, not mine. However I won't accept the title of selfish and inconsiderate.
It's their opinion, but my life. I guess, we all are misunderstood at one point in time.

*I have court on the 14th, still haven't told my mom.
I need to get it over with, IDK what I'm afraid of.
I wasn't in her car, I'm 19 and she's not going to have to pay for the ticket.
I really just need her for transpo.
It's always one thing after another, but things could be so much worse so whaatev.

Glad It's Over

What a week/weekend!
Everyone has went their separate ways, and things are slowly returning to normal now.
My uncle is finally laid to rest and while I had a good time with my family I just wish death wasn't the cause of us all being together again.

My last update was about me finally getting my license, well now I can add getting my first ticket to the list. ALREADY? Yep, crazy but oh well. I plan to fight it because he clearly could of gave me a warning especially being that I have no record, and that I'd just gotten my license like 2 days ago.
& then someone did the EXACT same thing, I got pulled for and no one pulled them over. Of course the attitude in me questioned him about it and his excuse was that he was citing me so he couldn't pull them over when clearly there were two other police cars behind him. It's all bullshit and a big waste of time if you ask me, but well see how it ends when I go to court.

Work is work, I opened a savings account today because its so easy for me to spend money when Its sitting in my checking. & to be honest, I need to save as much money as I can, so hopefully that will help.

My Step dad finally got a memory card for his camera, so expect to see more WDYWT & Random pics. Still going to get my own, I'm going to settle for the Nikon S220.

I just finished watching FD4, and I'll give it a 3/5. I'm glad that I didn't pay money to see it in theaters, and that it's supposedly the last one. The acting and quality was overall poor, the 2nd one was the best IMO.

* Excuse the bad hair in the pic, I have a hair appointment Saturday, I'm bringing the bangs back.
=]

Moving Along

I have internet after all, this is our second day at the hotel and I'm ready to go home already. The only plus is the exercise room. I got a much needed work out in today. I've gained a lot of weight over these past few months from being back home and not being as active as I was in atl.
Things are moving along with this job, I had my last interview Monday! Now I'm waiting on my background check, I don't think I have anything to worry about. They changed my position to basically running the home department. It's going to be interesting and very new. This would be my first retail/sales job, and the lady said she feels I'm too advanced for fitting rooms and replenishing. And that I'll be fine, lets hope so!


Every time I attempt to take pictures with my Sk, I get mad because I had a nice ass Cannon camera and those bums just had to violate and rob me for my shit. I plan to buy one as soon as I start working, as well as a laptop. I plan to search for a new laptop during Black Friday. I'm not trying to wait that long for a camera though, I've had a Sony, Samsung, and a Cannon and now I want a Nikon. Taking pictures with my Sk sucks.

High Standards

I was in a situation last night, that made me realize that I just may be setting my standards to high when it comes to males. I mean I've always been picky and I'll never settle for less but a lot of males would describe me as mean and with a fuck it attitude. However situations like the one I was in last night is the reason why I always prepare myself for the worse and try to avoid catching feelings for a dude. Then on the other hand, most dudes always claim "I'm not like other dudes." or "All dudes aren't the same." So I try to give them a chance and what do they give in return, BULLSHIT! I have a three strikes rule, and a "1 out of the 4" before you can pass go. It's not as serious as it sounds, trust me. My 1 out of 4 is basically you have to have 1 out of the 4

• Job
• Your own place
• Car
• In school

and it's a bonus if you don't have kids, and if you have kids all I ask is that you miss me with the drama. Am I asking for too much? I'm not to big on looks, all I ask is that you're decent on the eyes and have a niice style and mean kick game.

Anywho, this weather has been so nasty lately, its raining as I type. The perfect weather to be cuddling with that special someone. In my case I'm going to stuff face, watch a movie, and read my book. I'm currently reading "Crackhead II" its a good read if you're into urban fiction.
I'm supposed to give this situation another chance tonight, once he gets off work we're going to get up and chill, at least those are the plans we'll see out it turns out.

I won't be updating for about a week or so, they're about to start working on the inside of our house and we can't be in here due to the lead.

I'm done Stressing; for now

Things are getting better! Surprisingly I'm not as stressed as I would normally be. Yes when everything first started to go wrong, I was a reck. However I've realized that the more I stress the longer it will take for things to start going my way. A lot of things are still up in the air, but I can only take it one day at a time, and hopefully what ever happens will be something positive.

As far as school; I just did the Parent Plus Loan and got denied which makes me eligible for the full subsidize/unsubsidized loan amount. I'm still unsure of that amount, I keep reading between $4,000-and $10,500.
Either way whatever it is, it should bring my balance to $0, and that's really all that matters.
Or hopefully a negative balance because lord knows I could use a refund!
Enrollment deadline is the first week of August, so no time for bullshit. Depending on the amount, I'll probably have to stay with my Uncle until I get a job to pay my own rent, hopefully no later than November.
It's a lot more to it, but that's pretty much the basics.

The lady from the job, FINALLY called me. I got the job, however she's going on vacation next week and she won't be able to call me to complete the hiring process until the first week of August. Which then leaves me about two weeks, for background checks, paperwork and training. Which leaves me NO time to work, because if all goes well I plan to be on the first thing smoking to atl on the 21st. As desperate as I am for money and other things that I need and want I thought of taking a semester off and staying home to work and save and return to atlanta come January. Crazy? She's still going to call me when she returns and I'll give her my final decision..so we'll see.

uumm what else, I scheduled a appointment for my road test.
Might have to reschedule because I can't find my permit. For some reason I think I threw it away; FML! I meant to throw away my temp i.d which looks the same as the paper permit.
I'm supposed to pay a deposit by tomorrow to hold my spot, but I can't get another permit until Monday so yeah thats another we'll see.

This is looong, and my eyes are getting heavy. It's Friday and I'll probably be sleep by 1am, some summer ehh.